8 months ago I vowed myself to stay at home and take care of our daughter 24/7. I've always wanted to be a stay at home wife and when Milly came into our lives, I've always wanted to be a full-time mom. As reality bites and due to unexpected expenses I am left with no choice but to go back to work and temporarily set aside my dream of being a full-time mom.
I work at Shaw and live in Las Pinas. Can you imagine the traffic that I brave every day? I also work at night so juggling my time whenever I arrive at home is quite a challenge for me. Four hours of total travel time every single day is making me insane and it’s as if I am already getting a butt sore every time I go to the office. But then again, I have no choice.
So how do I manage my time? To be honest, I actually do not know. I have poor time management skills but needless to say, I feel proud because even if I work full time I still manage to take care of our daughter "full-time". I am the one who feeds her, bathe her, put her to sleep, change her clothes and so much more. I actually feel lucky that I get to do all these things even if I am full-time working mom. I actually do not know where I get all these energy, because even if I feel tired because of work, my stress and need for sleep suddenly fade away the moment I see my daughter. Imagine, a baby trying to wiggle her chunky feet and arms while shouting aaakkk akkkk just to get my attention so I would carry her is just irresistible. That’s our everyday scenario. Who wouldn’t love that? It’s as if all my efforts of taking care of my daughter plus working full-time is starting to pay off little by little. How much more if my daughter can already hug my knees and shout: “mama, mama, I missed you!”, ahhh, that is so priceless.
There is not a single moment that I do not think of my daughter while at work. (hhm, my husband can actually blame me if my daughter would wake up during the night, hehe). I’d even ask my husband to send me some pictures to keep me updated of what she is doing.
(as if naman napaka layo ko at nasa ibang bansa ako) haha! Call me OA but we do facetime almost every day so I could take a glimpse of my daughter before I go home. Tada!
This is my way of overcoming my "sadness" whenever I'm here at work. For sure first time mommas share the same sentiment with me.
I am still in the process of adjusting, and every day, I feel like crying the moment I would step outside the room while I see my daughter peacefully sleeping. If only I could sleep beside her every single night and be the first one she sees in the morning.
Sigh. My daughter is the reason why I do not want to go to work, but she's also the reason why I need to go to work. That is why I admire all moms. Their sacrifices and willingness is really no joke. I never understood this until I became a mom. I tell you, being a mom turned me in to a different person - way better than before.
|Good Morning baby girl|
So here's a BIG shout-out to all stay at home moms and full time working moms out there: KUDOS to all of us! We are indeed superheroes.